I’m leaving Egypt. Not literally, but figuratively. I thought my residence was the Promised Land, but I crossed over the border into Egypt without my knowledge.
I am in the middle of a divorce from someone who I thought loved the Lord as I do. Without any explanation, he ceased communication and a month and a half later, asked for a divorce and our beautiful country home. During spring break in March, my children and I moved to an apartment in the city.
I invested much love, time, finances, and effort into this relationship , just to be banished from the kingdom for no spoken reason. When I was deceived, I entered Egypt without even realizing that I had crossed the border. I’m on my way back to the Promised Land.
Where is the Promised Land? Is it a location? A state of mind? The Promised Land is where God is located, where He desires us to be. The Promised Land is not necessarily our apartment, although I do believe God supplied an opening just when we needed it. The Promised Land is not necessarily our church, yet my children and I returned to the church we attended prior to the marriage. We were received and welcomed as if we never left, and have continued the excellent Biblical teaching in which we had flourished. The Promised Land is not necessarily a state of mind, yet to reach the full potential God desires of us, I need to work through the hurt, the disappointment, and the grief of learning that my life was a mirage.
As I grow closer to God, I grow closer to the Promised Land, that place He desires me to dwell. Sometimes, this means literally packing your belongings and moving to a new location. Sometimes this may mean moving on from friendships which are enslaving us. Sometimes this may mean setting aside other things to spend time with God.
One day last week I was in a pity party funk, wanting the beauty of the past, the peace and quiet that came with my former residence, the beautiful hardwood floors, massive kitchen, garden, field flowers, big comfy bed, wildlife, morning coffee on my back porch, just like the children of Israel desired the leeks and garlic of Egypt, that which provided life’s flavor. For each of us to arrive at where God desires us to be, our Promised Land, we may have to give up something that we love and leave it behind.
Was divorce what God desired in my life? No. Can God use this situation to draw me into a closer relationship with Him, even turn this into a ministry in the future? Absolutely.
You will take this journey alone. The song “I Have Decided To Follow Jesus,” has a verse which is difficult to hold on to:
“Though none go with me, still I will follow”
For you to leave your Egypt, you will probably have to travel alone. Are you willing?
So what is the Egypt you need to leave? When are you packing?